Hollie Ferguson

angelface-sarah:

You start to lose faith in the people around you.

Hellooo,

I’m almost never on here anymore, yet when I do come on I always realise I miss it!

Still no day job … My ‘lovely boyfriend’ was a cheating scumbag who not only had another girlfriend who he ‘forgot’ to split up with, cheated on me with two girls who often drink in my work. JOHN DAVIDSON (SHEEPY) By the way … just incase you guys see him on your travels :). My brother has rescently split up with his girlfriend, and lost his job, so the both of us are aging my parents terribly and spending some quality time with each other lately through the long, unemployed week. It’s nice :).

Jeramiah is still a wee git, He’s used to the fact that there is constantly people in the house though, which is making him a bit of an attention seeker when nobody is around him. It’s really cute for the first 10-15 minutes, then it’s a bit of a pain.

I’ve been addicted to ‘Shit My Dad Says’ book and series lately aswell, the book is the only book that i’ve had to put down because I was laughing so hard. HIGHLY RECCOMENDED!!! The series was a bit dissapointing to start with, but when you just lower your expectations, it gets better.

Thats all the crap I can be bothered typing …..

I’ve grabbed a few hours to sit on my arse, and explore the internet, after like 5 minutes of looking at everyones statuses on facebook, and looking at how zombiefied Bebo is, i’m now here.

Incase either of you find yourselfs reading this, my kiwi slumbering family members. I’m still in the huff, but not one that couldn’t be fixed with a couple of flight tickets and a wee Hollie sized basket which i can use to be put at your doorstep by a well paid… naked, delivery man.  I’m only guessing you might read this, coz I have been stalking yours since you guys have landed.

Anyways, back to me!

Totally quit my day job, not that i’m one to brag, but they guys were shite. And didn’t deserve me :). So i’ve been house bound with my wee kitty for a couple of weeks now watching zombie movies, and drinking at night times to try and get the images of zombies out of my head! But i’m still working in Chalmers, and Tee-aans party pad every so often when there is parties booked. I’ve also got myself a pretty godamn handsome, lovely boyfriend to frolic around with, when he’s not a crabby hole, or drunk in edinburgh and falling down stairs. And it’s working to my advantage because of the snow aswell, coz everyone else seems to be off aswell, so i have company to watch zombies with and drink with. Although, i’ve never really had a job where i’ve been able to do things at weekends, so on the saturdays that i find myself going into town, i’m upset at how busy it is, and how much children is running wild that I need to kinda step over. So decided it’s for the best to retreat at the weekends, coz i’m not actually used to them.

Anyhoo, i’m not writing down more useless crap for people to look over and judge me against. Gonna watch zombies

xx

Hey, like the day after I posted the picture of me and my boyfriend and stated that I actually liked him, we broke up. After my first hour of the usual cry after any change I have in my life, I’ve been fine. I promised myself that this wouldn’t be a bitchy post (lets see how I do).

I wanted to write something on here about the break up, coz this is the first time i’ve realised whats the best thing to do after breaking up with someone you genuinely really like. So this post is not just for other people to read, I think that it’s best I write this down so I don’t forget for next time :p.

Instead of the usual, get people round to cheer me up the day after your break up (which I did try, and didn’t really cheer me up). Its so much better to do something different with people who cheer you up. For instance, I just made a little change in my routine for one day, went out in the car this morning with my mum and had the cd’s playing and I was singing my wee heart out, nothing special but made me happy. Also I spent the 3.50 I would usually spend on fags or red bull or something, on a magazine. That was a nice wee change, and it made me happy.

So much better than the usual after-the-break-up routine - dye hair a different colour, eat junk food, bitch obsessively, drink wine or go out and get drunk.

The break up happened only a couple of days ago and I see it far enough! I feel like i’ve lost about ….. a hairy 16 stone? (retract claws). Also, instead of just thinking back to the good times, i’m focusing on why we broke up, and the more I think about it, the more I kinda wanna break up with him again!

Also, rather than the ‘we’ll keep in touch, and we’ll stay friends’ act I seem to put on to my exes, no matter how much of a knob they’ve been. I just made it clear I wasn’t putting up with him, and we were finished. This way i’ve been able to just focus on not talking to him, rather than worrying about when is suitable times to speak to him, and worrying about that fake smile and conversation when he comes into my work.

I’ve had such a positive outcome this time breaking up with someone, and i’m putting it down to the way i’ve been treating myself afterwords. This was such a silly post, but i’m glad i’ve kept this down. must. not. forget!